Breastfeeding is hard work! It consumes your life. Well, the little life you have left after having a newborn. So why can't I just quit?
I enjoy it! Well, sometimes I enjoy it. I just can't let myself quit though. After two months of time and energy poured into breastfeeding I just can't quit. There are days when I want to oh so bad.
Let me say though that things are looking much better now. After spending more than 30 minutes on the phone with the lactation consultant explaining my difficulties she admitted she had no idea how to help me. Surprisingly enough I wasn't discouraged though. Something she had said got me thinking. I had an "ah-ha" moment. Are you ready?
I realized Celeste won't nurse if she is too wound up. If she gets to upset and hungry she won't eat. I didn't think it could be that simple, but I tested my theory and it is true! True I tell you! Every other baby I know has to literally be hung by their toes before they are awake enough to eat. My baby does better if you just wake her up enough to latch on.
It has been a week now and we have had almost all positive breastfeeding sessions!
Celeste is still not gaining weight fast enough. She is stuck at the second percentile for weight. But at least we aren't falling off the growth chart. I had to supplement with formula. Celeste is still not a champion breastfeeder and I have to pump after every single feeding. I usually get her to eat the hind milk I pumped and if not I save it for later. I have no milk stored up and so I don't go any where for more than 2 hours.
I am still very glad I did all the therapy with her though because she really was physical unable to nurse. I am so glad I worked with the lactation specialists because they were very helpful. We have made it so far. I am happy I didn't give up. I am 75% sure I would do it all again.